I have heard it from more than one person in the last couple of days and I guess i should stop and take a deep breath and let things just happen. Only time will tell. I have a really hard time doing that for some reason I think it might be due to A.D.D.
Minutes seem like hours, hours seem like days, and days seem like weeks.

Really sucks when there is no one to share it with!

Well I definitely need to get myself a job and I am having trouble getting the motivation to go out and get one. Here is the deal, I don't want to go back into the restaurant business at all. I have been doing that all my life, shit I even went to school for culinary and graduated. I loved the culinary field at one time but just not all that into it these days.
So here is my dilemma. Trying to find something that pays well without having to go to school for it. Something to ponder i guess.

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Addiction destroys!

Time for change.

Has anybody ever felt like no matter how honest they are with someone that it doesn't matter, they will still think you are a liar. Is this due to guilt maybe?
Is it because they have been lying to themselves so much that they just believe that everybody is lying.
So I wish that those people that were in my life would just stop with the bullshit head games and maybe believe what i say for once. It sucks that i had to loose someone in my life because they just think that they are catching me in a lie when in all actuality I have been completely honest with them, they just don't want to believe it.
Is this their way of telling me they don't want to be around me anymore but they are just to scared to tell me that. I would rather that than be accused of something I have not done.
Oh well I guess. Not the way that I would want it to go down but some people just need some growing up to do. Maybe one day they will realize that I am not a liar. I'm sure it will be too late though. Damn I thought that was the one.